I’m taking Jeremy to his dads house for the first time in months. I don’t really want to make an hour and a half trip. I’m trying to be a bit more flexible, but the last time I was at his house, he was talking on the phone and on ooVoo with his girlfriend, and he didn’t speak to me. I stayed an hour and left. The time before that, he put me out and didn’t even say bye to Jeremy.

For those two reasons alone, I hate having to go to his house. It really isn’t a big deal to me that he lives so far away, it’s just the fact that he’s either rude to me or disrespects me. It doesn’t happen all the time, but one time is enough for me.

I try my hardest to be nice to him when he’s mean to me, love him when he doesn’t deserve it,  the whole enchilada, but at this point, I have no other choice but to be a hard ass and to stay on him about seeing Jeremy. He knows that I don’t have a problem with him spending time with his son, my issue is with is whole attitude about the situation. When he doesn’t get what he wants he throws tantrums and gives me the “silent treatment” if you will, and when he’s mad at me, he distances himself, but also from Jeremy.

That bugs me more than anything. My pops wasn’t around because he and my mom didn’t get along. Now that I’m older and I can judge things for myself, I would have left too, but despite the issues they had, he still had two children with her, and there’s no excuse great enough to pardon a father not taking care of his kids.

I hope that today goes smoothly, if anything. No tension, no drama, nothing negative. Just good things. =)