One of my rules is to never fall for a guy in the club.

Also, one of my goals for 2012 is not get emotionally involved with anyone.

A couple weeks ago, I broke both of those rules.

I met this guy in the club and he asked me to dance, and the only reason I’m really making an effort to talk to him is because he’s a friend to my best friend. I’d never invest time in a complete stranger… Sounds weird because this guy is a complete stranger, to me at least, but at least I have some sort of idea how he is based on what my friend tells me about him.

I was afraid to text him at first because I didn’t want to seem too eager to talk to him, so I waited until the next day to do so. He texted me back after some hours and we got to talking and he seems like a really laid back and chill person, like the male version of me, and then out of nowhere he just stops texting me.

Normally, I wouldn’t make a big deal about it, but the fact that I like what he brings to the table and I can actually carry a conversation with him. That’s what I enjoy about talking to him more than anything, he draws my attention. He makes me want to get to know him. It’s been almost two weeks since we met, and I don’t mean to come on too strong or anything like that, I just want to get to know him more than anything and see what he’s all about more than anything. I can usually read people well, and he seems like him and I could have a really good time together.

It’s been a long time since I’ve met someone who captures my attention and holds on to it. I get bored really easily, so that’s why I guess I’m making a big thing out of this. I don’t mean too, but me being a woman, a Cancer, and being clingy to men who show me the slightest interest doesn’t help. I hate that I’m clingy, but I grew up without my dad being around, so it’s sort of shaped me into a magnet for male attention. I’m surprised that I’ve been moving so slow with him. Our conversations aren’t about sex, or breast size, like most of my conversations, and that means a lot to me that I’m actually taking the time to get to actually get to know this guy and see what he’s about.

I’m not going to sit around and wait for him to get a clue. I know it hasn’t been that long, but I only want to get to know him better. I’m not trying to start a relationship out of thin air or anything like that. All I want for now is just someone I can chill with who I can be myself with, who brings back that feeling, you know? It’d be nice to have that again.

I hope he understands, but if not, then I’ll be okay.