January 2012
8 posts
Welcome to My Dark Place...
I’m EXTREMELY depressed.
Between not having a job, past due bills, and being a single parent, everything is going from really bad to worse in a matter of seconds.
Everything is in a downward spiral and I can’t stop it………………………..
I'd Rather Live Under a Bridge (Part Two)
Okay, hold up!!!
My grandma said she didn’t have any money, but she just stopped by my house and gave me her debit card and yelled at me about her “being late for work,” and that I haven’t called her since my mom left for vacation. There are A LOT of things wrong with this picture.
I thought she didn’t have any money???
There’s no way she can be “late...
I'd Rather Live Under a Bridge
My phone bill, gas, water, and internet bills are all past due.
My phone has been off for the last few days and I told my sister to call my grandma and tell her that my phone was off, which I’m pretty sure she knows by now, and the bill needs to be paid, and she told my sister she didn’t have any money, which I know is a lie because my grandma ALWAYS has money, whether it’s in...
On The Docket
I’m taking Jeremy to his dads house for the first time in months. I don’t really want to make an hour and a half trip. I’m trying to be a bit more flexible, but the last time I was at his house, he was talking on the phone and on ooVoo with his girlfriend, and he didn’t speak to me. I stayed an hour and left. The time before that, he put me out and didn’t even say bye...
Who Is Sheena?
This is a list that describes me! What I like, dislike, etc., and some of them will have a brief summary of why.
I Like/ Enjoy:
Food:
I am an emotional eater. I eat when I’m happy, sad, depressed, etc. I use to eat a lot after the eighth grade thinking I would gain weight or get a bigger ass, but it never happened.
Movies
I don’t need to explain this really, but I watch movies all the time,...
Breaking All The Rules
One of my rules is to never fall for a guy in the club.
Also, one of my goals for 2012 is not get emotionally involved with anyone.
A couple weeks ago, I broke both of those rules.
I met this guy in the club and he asked me to dance, and the only reason I’m really making an effort to talk to him is because he’s a friend to my best friend. I’d never invest time in a complete stranger… Sounds weird...
Hot and Cold
De’Sean is getting on my nerves, again.
One minute he wants to be cool with me and misses me, then the next he’s making threats towards me because I won’t let him keep Jeremy by himself. I have my reasons for that that I won’t reveal, so just leave it at that.
I have a very low tolerance for any of his bullshit. I’ve dealt with him and his mood swings for the last four years and I refuse to go...
2012 Goals
get a job
get my license
pay off all my debt
grow a garden
go to a concert
go to church at least twice a month
take up a new hobby
read six books
don’t get emotionally involved with anyone
go out twice a month
live opposed to existing
teach Jeremy how to talk
manage my money better/ create a budget
gain a tolerance for alcohol
not let anyone but me control my life
get into shape
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December 2011
5 posts
Wasting Away
My grandma and I just got into an argument, and although it just happened, I couldn’t tell you what it was about.
At the end of the day, I’m still pissed off at her for kicking me and Jeremy out of her house back in May. She annoys the living shit out of me by always throwing old shit in my face. She says stuff like, “I’m tired of being used and abused,” or she’ll rub in in my face that she paid...
Foes and Allies
It seems relationships are just not for me.
I’ve never been the girl with long hair, curvy hips, or a big ass and boobs, so it’s natural that I get picked last, if you will, to be someone’s girlfriend, and I could be extremely wrong, but I feel like most guys pursue me just to have sex… Then again, I could be right, BUT a lot of guys have the sole purpose of just wanting sex from me, and not a...
Fact or Fiction
I don’t know why, but I’ve been thinking about De’Sean a lot since he was here on Tuesday. He spent the whole day with Jeremy and I, bought Jeremy’s Christmas gift, and he took me to Chipotle for lunch. It was weird because that was the first time we’ve gone to Chipotle together since we broke up in January of 2010. The whole day was pretty cool. I don’t feel so emotionally attached to him...
The “Simple” Life
I feel as though anything that can go wrong, will, or already has.
I got pregnant at 18, and I can’t blame anyone but myself for that, and you’d think that my family would be a little bit supportive even if they were disappointed in me, but they’ve been making my life a living hell ever since.
Let’s back up a little bit though.
I grew up being raised by my grandma and aunt for a majority of my...
Life Goes On
Last night was the first time in a long while that De’Sean and I held an actual conversation with one another. The fact that we are each other’s first loves, and we have a child together makes things a lot harder than just a regular old ex boyfriend. It reminds me of the old times with the subtle flirting and the childlike name calling, and out of nowhere: Him: :) Me: What’s that for? Him:...